G.A.D General Anxiety Disorder… Healed


General Anxiety Disorder is abnormal and excessive anxiety that impedes the sufferer from carrying out normal daily tasks and enjoying life. It is perfectly normal to become anxious around stressful events, but GAD is an intense and overwhelming fear, or dread, intrusive thoughts and anxiety – which afflicts sufferers, as soon as they wake up until they go to sleep, with no reason or triggers. I struggled with GAD from 2010 to 2014.

I developed this condition after a long and painful trial, and from the demands of caring for a mentally unwell child. I was constantly keyed up and on edge. I was unable to relax, my mind was either racing or going blank – so I was unable to process information normally and often looked like an idiot because I just missed things. I really didn’t need help in this department, as I can look like an idiot all by myself. I was fatigued, irritable, sensitive, experienced muscle tension, digestive problems and constant headaches that interfered with my sleep. Anxiety changed me into a fragile and reactive person who couldn’t cope, which impacted on my relationship with my family. It was exhausting and futile trying to make my family and friends appreciate and understand my condition. I would receive a lot of – just get it together ect, but there was something broken in my brain and I couldn’t fix it. It was ironic and humbling for me because I once had the same attitude towards anxiety sufferers! My anxiety was starting to take over my life: I found it increasingly difficult to cope with social events and just getting to meetings required a monumental effort.
I didn’t know what was wrong with me, but tried to put on a happy and brave face, but cracks would inevitably appear. I was diagnosed with GAD: General Anxiety Disorder and it was a relief to know I was suffering from something and it wasn’t me. It progressively became worse, as I refused medication and treatment.

I went to Leadership Camp in 2014 and struggled through it owing to the anxiety, however I was adept at going through the motions and masking my problem, but on the inside I was troubled and scared.

I knew that only the Lord could heal me… but I wasn’t getting the victory, but things were about to change. At Leadership Camp, I heard Andrea Nankiville’s testimony of being healed from a intestinal fluke which ruined her life, but she said something interesting – she said that she knew she was healed by God, even though she still suffered with symptoms. To me that is not logical. If you are exhibiting signs and symptoms then it is directly indicative of a condition… but she maintained her faith and went to the doctor for confirmation. He took tests and gave her the all clear. From that point on she slowly recovered from the damage to her body. This was a great testimony, but it didn’t mean that much to me initially. That meeting, I had purposed to go to the prayer line to ask God for a healing from GAD because I was desperate. Owing to my anxiety, I had stopped going to the prayer line because it made me feel self conscious and anxious.

As I had hands laid on me, I experienced an overwhelming sensation to cry, because I knew the Lord heard my request and that I had been healed. I returned to me seat still fighting the effects of anxiety. I held onto Andrea’s testimony and realised that our God is not logical but faithful, so I held onto the fact that I was healed despite how I felt.

An outreach had been arranged in the afternoon and I knew that would be the confirmation of my healing. Since developing GAD I stopped enjoying outreaches and was too fragile to witness. However, I love serving the Lord and would turn up to witnessing events, just to support it. It was humbling and little bit humiliating, as I used to be a confident witnesser. I would stand mute, next to someone as they gave out pamphlets and witnessed. This went on for a few years.

So, I went to the outreach at Victor Harbour and before I knew it I had a stack of pamphlets in my hands. I wanderd off, on my own and the Lord gave me several very exciting witnesses in a row. I was completely healed and my symptoms soon disappeared. Like Andrea, it took a little while for my body to recover but now I feel like a normal person, who enjoys life and social events and can join in on outreaches. I really thank the Lord for this healing and the humbling process that I needed to go through.


Christmas… Santa Vs Jesus

A nativity scene has become like an Australian endangered species, while Christmas trees and coloured lights are decked all over the place. Our beloved Santa can be found in many department stores making children smile and laugh.


I was brought up believing that Jesus, the son of God, was born on Christmas day but the whole deal had been hijacked by commercialism and the guy in the red suit – which was fine with me because I scored lollies and presents from Santa. Jesus was less attractive to me as a child because he didn’t give me presents; also there was a distinct lack of reindeers.

Since becoming a Christian, I wanted to know the significance behind Christmas. Also, I needed answers to two questions: Is Christmas based on Jesus’ birth? And, as a Christian, is it appropriate to celebrate Christmas?


Firstly, where does Christmas originate from?

According to the Book of Luke from the Bible, it tells us that on the night that the shepherds were informed of Jesus’ birth, they were out in the fields watching their flocks. This happened in spring time during the lambing season. Knowing this  leads us to place Jesus’ birth in spring rather than in winter: many scholars say this occurred in March or April, with some saying October… but definitely not December. So if Christmas is not based on Jesus, on what then?

Here lamby-lamby, come here lil' lamb.. oh you're snap frozen.
Here lamby-lamby, come here lil’ lamb.. oh you’re snap frozen.

Historically, Christmas is based on pagan Sun Festivals. Basically, ancient peoples throughout the Northern Hemisphere celebrated nature festivals during the winter solstice (the beginning of the days lengthening and warmer weather), around December 22nd. During these December festivals people would light bon fires, decorate trees and celebrate.

Christmas goes back as far as early 300s. A Roman Emperor Aurelian proclaimed Mithraism: worship of the sun god as the official state religion. Often the religion of a king became the religion of the people. Also, by A.D. 337, the celebration of Christmas on December 25th had been firmly established. In that year, Emperor Constantine was baptised on Christmas Day and encouraged Christians to celebrate Christ’s birth during this time. The Mithraic cult and Nature Festivals like Brumalia and Saturnalia threatened Christianity, so this could have led to the churches throughout Europe observing “Christ’s Mass’, on December 25th, to combat pagan festivals.

So Christmas is a fusion of sun worship, pagan festivals, traditions, commercialism, with a religious significance: granted it is not the correct day, but nevertheless the day chosen to celebrate Christ’s birth. By the way, there is no Biblical directive to celebrate Christ’s birth or death.

Christians complain that Christmas is too pagan, non-religious people complain that it is too religious and everyone complains that it is too commercial.


Knowing the origins and meaning behind Christmas, I have decided to celebrate Christmas because it is a meaningful family celebration: presents are shared and everybody eats and drinks too much.

So what is the take home message here?

If you are a Christian then celebrate Jesus every day and not twice a year. Enjoy Christmas once a year, but enjoy Jesus every day.

Where to Find God?

Religion has caused wars, horrific crimes against children, is a front for fraud and now has links to terrrorism… Religion is a woeful advertisement for God.

Just as well God is not into religion… however, God advocates Christianity. Many people are fooled into following religion because it’s steeped in tradition, appears  ‘sacred’ with its stained glass windows and statues, and offers a palatable and superficial, yet empty version of God’s reality and power. Religion is far removed from the things of God. God, however has set out his plan and truth clearly, in the Bible.


You just have to open it up and read it.


If someone knocks at my door professing to tell me the ‘good news’, I want that backed up by Bible passages and scriptures, because let’s face it, there is many a wacko and nut job in the name of God.

Getting right with God is easy:

Repent (which basically means to change your mind from your thinking and give God’s word a go), be baptised (fully under water, not sprinkled  – we will get into that in a following post) and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit (Acts 2: 38). This is why Jesus died: because we can’t get to heaven on our merits or goodness. The Holy Spirit: the free gift from God is your ticket to heaven (Ephesians 1: 13). How do you know if you have received the Holy Spirit? You will speak in tongues (Acts 10: 45, 46; Mark 16: 18; Zephaniah 3: 9) – just like Jesus’ mates did (Acts 2:4).


Once you have obeyed God through repentance, baptism and receiving his Holy Spirit: it is God that makes you right with him – righteous. He becomes your Father and He will change your life and answer your prayers. Then upon His return you get eternal life… all this for simple belief, love, obedience and continuance in his word.

After you get right with God, you start living God’s new life: basically worship in spirit and truth at a church that preaches the full gospel. It is important to grow, learn and continue in your salvation experience because God is coming back soon. This Earth was not created to last forever and has a use-by-date (BTW, no one knows the time God is returning (Matt 24: 36), so all those religious loonies that say he is coming back at certain date and time always end up looking foolish and feeling embarrassed).

We, as Christians believe that God’s return is soon (Matt 24:44).

So, get yourself right with God because it is too late once He returns or you check out. Getting right with God is easy, costs nothing and you can enjoy a great relationship with God, also you get eternal life and miracles. But you do have to do it according to his word: the Bible – and not what you think or something that a person has made up.

Email me or leave a comment if you want to find out more.



Do the Right Thing…

I’m reading Exodus and I liked this little scripture: 23:4 If thou meet thine enemies ox or his ass going astray, thou shalt surely bring it back again.

Awesome. I love how the Lord wants us to do the right thing in all circumstances. So Righteous. Must curb inclination to boot beast and go home – note to self: do the right thing = please the Lord.

do the right thing

God Bless My Cotton Socks I’m Out Of Retail!

Sales targets, aggressive sales tactics and getting hauled over the coals for not closing sales is over!

Frustrated Customer Service Agent

I’m out of retail and relieved and happy about it.

Now that I am scarred for life (I’m now forever cursed to walk into a shop with the knowledge that the sale assistant will deviously create rapport to psychologically profile me, to up-sell, add-on and close the sale! And here I was living in my small minded naivety that I would be helping people find really nice things and make them happy with their purchase, thou fool!

So I scored a job as a medical receptionist. I’m looking forward to being coughed on, sicked up on and being around Ebola.

Unfortunately, my roster includes Thursdays which was my weekly time slot for my radio talk show. I had to resign from my sparkling conversationalist position. The week after I did this the show went statewide… darn it! And that is the way my cookie crumbles!

P.S. I have finished being a producers assistant for the comedy theatre performance of Mort. It looks good on my resumé, but remind me to never do it again. Soooo much grunt work, no pay and a lot of headaches.

Life is good. I’m out of retail.

Praise The Lord.

I think I’ll get back into writing…

What Is it Like Producing A Live Theatrical Production

Since I have taken on Assistant to the Producer for a local theatre group, called Naked Villainy – it sounds risqué but it is a Shakespearean allusion.

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The actor and backstage positions for Mort have been filled. Phew, I wipe the sweat from my brow as the performance is only three weeks away.

We have builders slaving away on the massive stage set, many people sourcing and making props; the cast are rehearsing and perfecting each scene and my director Sharon Kennedy, looks like she could do with a five espressos.

Producing a full scale production for three performances at the Bunbury Regional Entertainment Centre is, how to put this, er, say this elegantly… I need an understatement .. is just mental.

I run around putting up posters all over town to catch the attention of our theatre and entertainment loving locals and I’m on a social media campaign which keeps my hands connected to my keyboard when I’m not working. I have called every school in the greater SouthWest inviting them to our Senior High School matinée on Friday August 1st. I’m currently harassing journalists to do a story on our play – they are hard to get hold of but enthusiastic about our theatre group presenting Mort, the comedy play by writer Terry Pratchett.

So it is a bit busier than I first visualised.

I’ll be honest, I took on the gig of Producer because I thought it involved me wearing fur-trimmed jackets, swanning around rehearsals sipping on lattes…


I usually have to learn things the hard way. It is fun, but I’ll be glad when it is over. Fingers crossed that it is a sensational success!


Scored a job in Theatre!

I’m officially assisting the production of Mort. The Terry Prachett novel is funny, clever and very entertaining. As soon as my day job finishes, I’m hassling the talented director for advertising posters and whipping up a media storm. It is a local show and I’m looking forward to seeing the performance at the new Entertainment Cube in the Bunbury Regional Entertainment Centre.

Fingers crossed that none of the actors actually break their legs or go all diva on opening night. Check it out – http://bit.ly/1plUkx7